Well well well

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Here I am almost a full 11 years later.

I never thought that I would ever return to this.

Hell, I literally forgot it existed until I started working on a neocities site, and wanted some blog functionality. What would 24 year old me say if I told him where I am now in life?

Probably that he would have expected me to be further along. But then utterly shocked that I'm going to be married this year. Doubly so for the fact that the woman I'm going to marry, I met just over a year ago. I think he would have assumed that I was going to meet someone and wait at least three years. Strange how life goes. Back then I was so confused and afraid about what the future would bring. I guess that's what happens when you live with severe, undiagnosed ADHD. He would be bewildered at the fact that I am now on medication and handling it quite well.

He would also be bewildered at the fact that not only have I managed to go back to school, but it's completely online and an online school isn't considered a scam in this day and age. There are so many things I wish I knew then. So many people I wish I had known then. My entire life is in a much better place.

If I told myself that today, not only am I part of a D&D group, but that group has been going strong for the better part of 4 years, he would be so confused. Having lots of friends was something I didn't think I was capable of.




Welp. Time to publish this and see what it looks like.
Location: San Francisco, CA, USA

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